I woke up on Saturday morning took a hard tug at my hair, and it stayed intact, so on I went with the morning! I went in and took a shower and after washing my hair, I comb my hair out only to find large amounts of hair in the comb. DAMN IT!! Now I know, you are really going to snatch me bald headed you STUPID CANCER, and I was AMAZED that I was ok and not a blubbering wreck!! So late Saturday evening we decided to shave our heads. We had a bridal shower to go to on Sunday and Sangria to make and get to the party. I couldn't stand the thought of clumps of hair falling out at the party!! Well, Julie is correct. It took a shot of Tequila and several wine breaks for me to get through the head shaving. Don't judge! If you know my sister and I, we turned it into a party, and laughed so hard sometimes we thought we would pee our pants!! Julie went first, being the brave sister cheering me on, and letting me know I could do it too. As I was shaving her head, I of course, put her in a mohawk cause I could and it was funny! As she is shaving my head I hear her yell, "and this is for punching me when we were little, and this is for.....!!" It took me a minute to realize my poor sister had alot of pent up anger at me, LOL LOL!! She no longer needs therapy for her childhood issues. Who knew? LOL!!
Sunday morning comes along and we both walk out to the kitchen and just hug each other and cry! It doesn't matter that the hair will grow back. THIS SUCKS ALOT!!! We now had labels on us, and we felt naked. Going to the bridal shower was not an option anymore. Just couldn't do it. Even with a wig! This was not the place or time to debut the bald head!! I felt naked outside of the comforts of the bald home. Ashley, my oldest daughter had to go and take the Sangria and do the party thing alone. Not easy for an introvert, but she did it for me, and our friends. You bastard cancer you steal so much from people...YOU ARE GOING DOWN! This day I did have a full blown melt down that shocked even me. Thank God my sister was there!
Monday came and it was chemo day. This time I didn't feel so good after, but that is just the roller coaster of chemo. Just about the time you think your doing good and can do a little chore, it bitch slaps you back onto the couch! That is ok. It is still better than pregnancy!! The chemo fatigues me, makes me nauseous, and my taste buds don't like the taste of anything, but I have not yet had any vomiting, and they say I won't with the drugs I am on.
The journey I am on is one that is very humbling. I made the following post on my Facebook page, and feel it bears repeating.....
Your thought for the day (NO I did not come up with this myself)
If we all threw our problems in a pile, and got a look at everyone else's, we'd fight like hell to get back our own!
Sitting in a chair having chemo next to others, makes me feel so very blessed for the cancer I have. Mine is much easier than some of my "seat" mates!
As I see the things I see, I am thankful that I get to only have breast cancer! I do not mean that in any disrespect, or make it less than what it is, but for me, there are other that have it so much worse. I will take my path. The path that God is allowing me to go on. I will take it with pride, and humility, and with LOTS of LAUGHTER!
To all of you that take a second to think of me, and my great family, I thank you. Your support, whether in word, thought, or deed, is held dear to my heart, I love you all, and thank you for joining us on this journey. BITE IT CANCER!!!!
Wished Kris, Bentley, and I could have been there but we are prayin for you and hope to be there soon for you... xoxoxo bu
ReplyDeleteMe too Am, I love you!!
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